Sunday, April 29, 2007


i tHink i sHouLd gEt LoSt....i am nothing to u, i shouldn'T bother u.....i caNt dO anytHinG wHen u'Re sAd....i aM moRe uSeLeSs tHaN u....u are not useless.....U ARE NOT...U ARE DEFINATELY NOT USELESS.....
i dunno wether doing this is right anot ? i hope i dun hurt u by doing this....mayb even today will be the last day, i ever talk to u.....
i dun wan to do this.....i hate to do this....my heart is bleeding.....i'M crying....hAiS......i guEss iTs gooDbyE......oR mayb not.....i dun wan to say goodbye.....but.....hAiS ='( i dunno wat to do.....
AHHHHH....i DUNNO WAT TO DO ='(

i dun think i'LL blog for awhile....*hEaRtbRokeN* ='(



rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 10:05 PM Thursday, April 26, 2007

nO aPPeTiTe, No mOoD......bAcKpaiN dOesnT mAkE iT aNy bEttEr....=(

recently had to walk home....plus today backpain....=( walk home because.....erm....mayb can say to avoid facing some things.....so walk home lo.......now its tiring and painful.....>.<
today quite ok..early morning backpain >.< dunno y
onli i quite tired though....cause yesterday did not sleep cause i was drawing cute cartoon characters....didnt have the mood to sleep....thinking of many stuffs while drawing.....so i think i drawed about 5 pickachus, 6 kairi, 5 hello kitty and 4 melody ^^ all i like.....but then someone's drawing nicer then mine....sobs =( keep saying the kairi not as nice as his one...
=(
DnT had fun cause played with some melting of the metal ? or was it some other material ??? dunno....onli know it is used to stick it to the PCB so that it works....the process call soldering [ i think i spell wrongly =P ] the 'soldering' iron having a temp. of 300+ degree celcius to melt the metal or mayb some other material....had fun doing it ^^ then went to eat abit....went back to make my gears....finish le, played awhile before we were dismissed =X
after dismiss....walk home again....=(
then reach home....dunno wat's wrong =X did a compo and a compre before i sleep ? o.O
gOoD LucK tO aLL fOr tOmoLo'S eNgLiSh pApeR =] tAkE cAiRreS ^^
aNd cRaBby...cHeeR uPs ^^
baCkpaiNs....gO rEsT...=(
wHen wiLL tHe fEaR dissApEaR ? then i can happily take bus go home ??? =(

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 9:58 PM Monday, April 23, 2007

raiNeD tOdAy...hAiS ='(

today went to school...had lessons as usual....didnt go for the both recesses....no appetite to eat....jus sat at one corner, was thinking of things again....quite tired....yesterday didnt sleep well.....wake up then sleep then wake up then sleep......=(
then got timed test....guess i will fail de lo......
then during the test....raining wor....then athar beside me worrying about 'someone' haha....i so jealous....know her so much...she scared of wat also know....everything about her also know.....me...i know nothing....=( not even her birthday lo....athar....i jealous can ? =(
raining.......
played with the puddles of water by the school entrance....shoes all wet lo....make me think of running in the rain that time....hAiS =(
then went to Lot 1....saw a book, quite intresting [ "the black book of secrets" if i not wrong >.< ] ...but expensive lo....library dun have too....wan read a book also so difficult....so stood there read awhile while waiting for Hs, Jia Hao, TDL and Athar...SO NICE !!!...mayb i will save up to buy it =X but then there are so many other things i wan to buy >.< argh~ and plus now deathly hollows going to come out le....haven even read half blood prince.....cause i haven buy !!! ahhhhh....how ? books are so expensive now....argh~ then went down to NTUC.....eR zi keep asking me to eat....>.< so i juz anyhow buy a packet of crackers to eat lo >.< if not i today never eat anything one....NO APPETITE !!! =( mayb tomolo wont eat..... when i reach home...juz went online....then went into my room to do DnT....then kenny ask me help him print things.....i never reply....then he go disturb her.....argh >.<
soRrY hoh if he got disturb dao u...rest wells woRx~ =] =X
sOrrY cRaBby....kinD oF iGnoRed u tOdaY >.< soRrY =( =X
running in the rain....accidentally cut my hand....got blood....>.< happy memories =]STRONG">


rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 9:46 PM Sunday, April 22, 2007

LivinG mY LiFe rEgReTfuLLy =(

jus a usual day today....juz stayed at home in the morning....the whole morning was jus lying on my bed....dun feel like getting up....dun wan to face the world >.< hAiS......thinking alot....held back my tears too =( wonder wat's wrong wif me these few days....keep thinking about things which made me sad and unhappy.....=( hAiS...also counted how many "first times".....[ mayb ur dun understand....then jus treat it as u never see it... ] then when i went downstairs to buy some bread for my lunch saw "him" [ mayb athar will know...lols ] which made my day worse...=( then went back home....played audition....glad that u are now lvl 10....going freedom le loh....anyway i also dun think u'LL play.... then at night, parents ask me go out wif them.....was forced lo...=( went to causeway....saw something....then thought of the time...where i broke the promise =( went up to the cinema also.......and made it even worse....everything jus fly back to me.....=( wan run away also cannot..=( jus cause they wan see what movie nice.....cannot see other time meh...=( why mus now....when i am thinking so much... then went to food court eat....lost my appetite...then my mother force me eat....so went to buy omelette to eat.....quite small....like dessert.....then got scolded...=( my parents dun even know how i feel now....then went home....went online on msn....someone make me think alot...alot !!! now i feel even worse....everything i dun wan to know...is all coming to me all at once....i cannot take it....argh ! and now i dun even dare talk to her.....ahhhhhhh =( mayb we wont even talk to each other again.........*rEgReTs* hAiS =''( *sObs* =(
[ counted 36 " first times" ]
i guess tomolo will be a quiet day for me...

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 9:58 PM Saturday, April 21, 2007

i jUs kEeP tHinKinG aBouT the firSt pRomiSe i brOkE.....=(



Pichus [ positive and negative ], pickachu [ dunno spell correct anot... ] three of them i guess counted as one set i guess....cute lo =P recently keep seeing pickachus...remind me of u and the past....=X and the pRomisE....='(
today went to bugis ther again....tried to put away all my sorrows to try and enjoy it....all went well at first...but in the end.....hAiS ='(
first went to CCk MRT control station to meet Hs anD TDL....but then onli Hs show up....waited for TDL for 45 mins then he SMS me say he wan sleep....ask us go first....reach there le, went to the shop to add on the order....didnt need to do so....so onli Hs add the order....lols then after that went to sim lim tower....see thing see halfway....saw Mr Tay...WTH !!?? he say he go there help subaa buy thing....waaa so good...then after that went to eat before athar and TDL came to meet up wif us....met them at "OG" which we went up look at toys =] then after that went to bugis the seiyu....see toy again....bought toys too =P mi so childish.....hehe then after that went to marina square, walked around then went to wallet shop buy handphone pouch....hehe, the words very nice lo, very useful too....mayb i'LL use it if i not in a good mood....then went home at about 9pm...and caused them never eat....so guilty >.< SORRY !!! on the MRT back home.....i keep looking at the pikachu car.....thought of the promise......REGRET !!! ='( help back my tears luckily.....then managed to reach home before 10pm...the switch on the com.....stare at blank space....waiting for...........=(
i dunno wats wrong wif me....keep thinking of the promise i broke....the first promise.....i broke it....hAiS ='(

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 11:18 PM Friday, April 20, 2007

aT LeaSt tOdaY iT didnT gEt wOrsE....buT....hAiS ='(

today didnt talk much....when people talk to me i onli either say yes, no or dunno.....hAiS
after lessons today stayed in class awhile....2.30 went down to return key....but then i juz tell the person the class not locked....then the person scold me wor.....=( but the person still give me my EZ-Link card...then after that walked home again via the canal....thr weather so hot...>.< everytime i walk home.....i think of alot of things....recntly i keep thinking of the promisee that i broke the other time.....the first promise....and the first one i broke......mayb i will even regret it for the rest of my life....there's nothing i can do.....and now i know that regretting is too late.....i juz cannot get it out of my head.....the scar is forever there.....the promise....='(
evening went out for a walk....thinking of things also.....
at night i switch on my com and just stare into blank space and write bloggy.....have lots of things to say in msn.....but i didnt say anithing.......because.......hAiS ='(
never eat at all today
cant even say bye properly.....i'Ve lost my voice not because i sorethroat.....i also dunno why myself ='(

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 10:19 PM Thursday, April 19, 2007

eVerYthinG wAs finE.....unTiL...

morning as usual, went to school....attended lessons....nothing went wrong...=] got chinese test....quite boring =X then after english went to citech to put bag...cause going to esplanade, marina square...and one shop near Sim Lim Tower to buy DnT stuff....everything was well....nothing much happened....only had a slight cut on my hand...=X
then when going home....everyone around me was sleeping o.O somehow was worried about something >.< mayb its juz being an extra...then went home...and everything juz started to come all at once....my phone mem. card suddenly wan me reformat.....everything gone now.....then walk in the dark dark canal....so scary....lonely....cant even see my hand properly....hAiS....then when reached my house downstairs.....then bus came....saw athar !! then he say i crying...ok, mayb i am....=( hAiS.....now i feel that i have lost everything.....even after keeping the things in my thumbdrive it is still gone....corrupted or something...........walking in the dark was scary.....but once u see light....it'LL be much better.....so when will my hEaRt see the light ??? with everyday getting worse and worse......will i be able to see that light.....even after backing up my Data i still lost what i had tresured so much......now averything is gone........what can i do...everything i do.....is it hurting u ? i really dunno wat to do......everything's is getting worse and worse as everysingle day passes by.....I FEEL SO LOST.....REGRETS....hAiS ="(


rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 10:10 PM Wednesday, April 18, 2007

woRsE anD wOrsE....

hAiS....today was still as bad as yesterday....hAiS =(
during recess ate sweets for my lunch....
after that got one lesson, athar, alvin and me playing hangman.....had to multitask >.< hais ="( to athar: i dun blame u for mentioning it....but it just bring me back to then time when i so regretted what happened....i broke the promise.....i have myself to blame......if only i had a second chance.....hAiS ='(
the word is _ _ _ _ _ [ movie ] ans: Voice
then before sS lesson....got break, so went down to eat.....came up, was juz sitting there listening to Mdm Phua talk....didnt copy notes......anyone ask me question i juz ans them ya or dunno.....
after that went to look for jalleh.....and he changed my product from non-electrical to electrical !!! hAiS.....had it been any worse ??? =( now got two motor to buy tomolo....got a feeling that tomolo outing for the DnT.....wont be much fun for me as the rest of the people....hAiS =(
then after meeting him, went to Lot 1 NTUC wif Hs, Jia Hao, TDL and me which i wanted to buy chocolate for my dinner again....='( then saw Mdm Phua ??? waaa.....she so good treat us chocolate.....then like she treat me my dinner....thX Mdm Phua
cause she say how often do we bump into her ??? ....so she treat us something to eat lo...then after that went home....hAiS =(
hope tomolo doesnt get worse....=( its is bad enough already....
i haTe mYseLf fOr bReaKinG tHe pRomiSe....soRrY....hAiS.....i'LL nEveR fOrgeT hOw baD i'Ve bEeN.....i rEgReT iT sO muCh.......iTs brinGinG so muCh hUrT tO mE noW....i rgRet iT....bUt i gUeSs iTs tOo LaTe to dO aNitHinG noW ='( iF onLi tHerE iS a sEcOnD cHanCe.....hAiS ='(

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 9:26 PM Tuesday, April 17, 2007

fUrtHer aNd fUrtHer aPaRt...=(

recently didnt eat much....no appetitie....hAiS
something bad had really happen....i dun wanna face it....but i know i have to....i also dun wan to accept it...hAiS =( anyway who cares....
today got another cRabbY from cRaBbY ^^ very nice...love it =X
then had normal lessons, no mood....but still i didnt fell asleep and paid attention ? =X
when lessons ended went home....played awhile then went to physics night class lo....was late !!! >.< ahh =P after that went to buy chocolate.....guess that was my dinner.......and i guess all that i ate today was nugget from school canteen and chocolate which was my dinner......in a very bad mood...hAiS ='(
sOrrY cRaBby =(
sLowLy tHe gAp iS dRifTing fUrthEr aNd fuRthEr....hAiS ='(

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 10:19 PM Sunday, April 15, 2007

i'LL aLwaYs heRe iF u nEed mE =]

first half of the day today was kind of lazy...lie on my bed till 1+pm...then need to go to bugis buy DnT stuff AGAIN !!! XD hahaS....went together wif Hs & KennY....met up at Lot 1.....then kenny cant come into the platform because his EZ-Link card spoiled....lols then he had to buy standard ticket to get in....on the MRT everyone looked at me @.@ cause i wearing hat to cover something that was pasted on my head to cure my fever i guess....was feeling much better compared to yesterday....reached there went to sim lim tower straight this time....planned to buy things before we go fool around XD....bought some bicycle chain thing, the pieces alot !!! dunno when then can finish the whole chain....i think i'LL be usin it for my model [ DnT ] cause i HAVEN FINISH !!! ahhhh...i think i am the last one haven finish lo....sobs hope i dun get scolded lo >.<
after that went to sim lim square to play free games =X not the autual game, juz demos lo....but still quite fun =]
after that went to a street food stall to eat.....i ate two plates of fried dumpling noodle while Hs and Kenny ate one....actually wanted to eat the third plate....but they say i crazy >.< and plus i dun wan make them wait for me while i eat, so have to go off lo.....still feel hungry wor...sobS T.Tthen went to 'OG' then went to the top see toy toy again XD saw something which made me think of her....so bought it lo......probably i wont give her....no courage to do so....scared she dun wan....=X guess i need more courage somehow....
then halfway kenny go off...then left me and Hs....walked all the way to marina square, juz to look at somethings then went home cause my father want me buy food home and he's hungry.....so had to rush home ba....soRrY Hs....made u walk so much, then never do anything worth ur time >.< then after that went home lo....lucky never get scolded ;) tireD but i enjoyed the day ^^
something terrible happened today too, dun wan say anithing about it...juz want to say.....if u ever need my help, juz tell me....i'LL always be here.....



rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 10:23 PM Sunday, April 8, 2007

tOyS ToYs !!! XD =P


rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 1:05 AM Thursday, April 5, 2007

wOw...gOt tWo mEdaLs >.<

toDaY was appex day, kind of like sports day....never participate in any running event this year....instead went to take part in the swimming event (; then won in two event ^^ got two medals =] one is 100m Breastroke and the Biathalon event..tHen walk to the bus stop, got seperated from them cause the bus too full....then took 171 go bukit panjang, then took LRT go back CCk.....went to meet them......go library >.< nothing suitable there for me =X after that went to alvin house there play basketball.....long time never touch basketball, now dunno how to play le >.< hAiS.....after that then went home........really tired >.<

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 11:08 PM Monday, April 2, 2007

hAiS...i giVe uP =(

hAiS....today had quite a tiring day....first was going to school early, then after that P.E had to run 100m dunno for wat, but the teacher say that time i qualify for it.....o.O i think i forgot le =P anyway, wanted to run at first, but after the whistle was blown.....the first few steps forward were so painful =( so slowed down to jog....hAiS then after that she say need to run 1500m ? like so pain le still wan me run.....i ask her can dun run....she say at least try lo >.< hAiS....then give talk say all things.....but in the end juz wan me to run.....but she say so much......kind of wasting time though =X at the starting point wasnt really willing to run cause of the pain =( plus cRaBbY also ask me not to run @_@ but then, had to run cause she keep looking at me......eekS >.<
sOrRy cRaBbY >.< fRoGgY sinCerly say soRrY to u >.< hope u will fOrGivE mE......>.< =X =P
then after that leg so pain, cant even walk properly >.< "crawled" up to class like a snail....then had usual lessons....then during recess, stupid OM walk in =X then he cane sAbRi in front of the whole class...hAiS o.O sounded painful.....covered my ears and closed my eyes....dun wan to see anithing......juz hope he's okaE =] then after that had recess dragged into Mr Cheok lesson....but nvm cause Mr Cheok never came today, hope he comes back tomolo (;
after school had salsa -_- so boring, "my partner" so scared of me.....dun even wan hold my hand.....mayb i am really that scary lo =( after that still got two test, eng i was like sleepy, couldnt concentrate well >.< guess i wont be doing that well ba....hAiS then secondpaper did gEoG on desertification....first question managed to write 1& 1/2 page ^^ but seconde question didnt quite understand it.....so i kind of gave up cause there were also no time left to do >.< hAiS......two papers going to do badly le...hAiS =( then after that all the other levels had heats and so i went to take a look.....the fastest time for 1500m was 6.26sec. =] and i did 6.20 ^^ yAy....=P but i think still not good enough....hAiS =( really hope that my leg recover before this coming thursday >.< after that the heats went up to class and i actually walk up normally....o.O diE diE >.< i think my leg numb le........cant feel anithing.......ahhHhHh !!!
when i reach home.....was really tired >.< then should be going to bed soon =]
rEaLLy sOrrY cRaBbY XD

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 10:57 PM Sunday, April 1, 2007

wAteVeR i dO oR sAy nOw...iTs oF nO uSe...

today stayed at home for the first half of the day....played audi again as usual......then after went to read other people blog....then went to sleep until my mother woke me up and ask me go out wif them again....had to go lo =( then walk wif pain.....hAiS....then after that, parents went home and asked me to go buy satay alone....the place so deserted >.< then after that walked to 302 bustop...screamed midway while walking to the bustop =X
really tired....hope tonight wont be like last night.......where i cried the whole night =( hAiS....

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 10:13 PM

wOrriEs aBouT.....hAiS =(

hAiS.....morning till afternoon...did nothing but play audi......i am tired, hungry and in pain.....my leg never show signs of recovery, still as red.....want to sleep but i cant....even if i ly on bed and close my eyes, i still couldnt fall asleep =( and worse is, the moment i see food, i feel like vomitting.....hAiS.....i dun know wat is happening to me....hAiS =(
then at night mother still ask me go out watch movie and it made my leg worse....they watch a supposedly funny, but i find it more stupid then funny =X hAiS......definately something is wrong.....=(
nO aPPetiTe, cAnT sLeeP, wORrYinG....aLL bEcAuSe oF ........

rDRAgonZ [givE uPs~ !!! T.T ] 1:23 AM

i givE uP...

riG sOh miNg Yi =]
tHe 16 yEaR-oLd kiD =P

oR mayB 6 yeaRs-oLd XP LoVes :buLbAsAuR & piCkA & ...... ^^

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